I’m taking a ballet class tomorrow at my university. It’ll be my second ballet class and I’m kinda nervous. The first one we had…. well, you could say I wasn’t the best. I’m gonna try to stay up to step with everyone tomorrow and try to not get frustrated when I can’t get what we’re doing. But who knows, I could go in there and rock it. Hopefully I do! I guess the good thing about the second practice is that you can only get better. Well we’ll see how it goes.

Hope your friday is amazing.
xoxo.

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Why do we give up on things so easily?

Why do we give up on things so easily?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot today, and I think I know the answer, at least for me. As a society I feel like we want something and want it right away. This is so me when it comes to dance. I want to see results right now. And, ya know, that’s just not possible. I’m not superwoman. I don’t have the power to learn something and be perfect at it two seconds later. You can’t work for something for a week and expect to have it by then. There’s a quote that goes something like, “If it were easy, everyone would do it.” Think about it.. it’s so true! And I forget that all. the. time.! Sometimes I feel like it’s not fair that I’m not as good at something as I want to be because I “work so hard for it.” I can’t just work hard at it for a week though and call it quits because I’m not where I want to be. Things take time. And time is something I just don’t like waiting for. A goal or dream your chasing isn’t going to be easy by any means, and that can be really discouraging. You try, see no improvement, and give up because it’s useless. I struggle with this so much. 

DISCOURAGEMENT. What an ugly word, hmm? I’m probably the worlds worst when it comes to being discouraged over my achievements. I always feel like I could do better. And maybe I could. Actually, I know I could! But, discouragement is always in my mind when I don’t do something as good as I want to do it. I struggle with this daily, and I think this ugly word is why I’m so hard on myself. I might have to work harder than I’ve ever worked before, but if I keep going then I’m going to accomplish something amazing. I can’t do it though if I’m horribly hard on myself.

TODAYS REVELATION: Stop getting discouraged!! Lately I’ve been doing fairly decent when it comes to trying and trying even when you feel like you’re not getting anywhere. Today, though, I just had a change of heart. I saw results in my dancing (mainly my flexibility) and it was such an eye opener. God didn’t put this goal in my life for me to breeze through it. But if we ask Him for guidance then He will show us that He is with us in all aspects of our life. God was showing me that I can’t give up now. He’s helping me little by little… and I think the reason for that is because if he just gave it to me then I wouldn’t run to him for strength. God put this dream in my life and it’s through Him that I’m going to achieve it.

I just want to encourage everyone to take a minute and think about a goal or a dream you have. It doesn’t have to be extravagant. Once you think of it… GO FOR IT! Don’t let anything stop you. You never know how many people you are helping when you shoot for the stars. 

JE’TAIME, hayley.
have a lovely tuesday. xoxo

there once was a girl…

.. KIDDING! I’m not starting my blog out like that. But here I am to tell about the background of myself. Don’t worry, though, I won’t bore you to death. 

Why do I want to pursue dance? Ya know, it’s kinda crazy that I’m going for this huge goal. I’ve never danced, never done ballet in my life and all of a sudden I just want to up and make the pom squad. I’ve always been very ambitious. I get an idea in my head and it’s not going away until it’s accomplished. I love being like this, though. Pushing yourself is such a great feeling, especially when you get to the end of your goal. Of course accomplishment isn’t everything, but focusing on something to achieve is just in my heart. My main focus my whole life was cheerleading. The tumbling, the stunting, the dancing was what I lived for! Coming to college and not having that one thing to push myself for was kind of unsettling for me. Pursuing this when I got to college, though, was a little different. This dream only brought constant criticism. Whether it was spoken or not, I could tell people thought I was crazy setting my mind on something that couldn’t possibly be achieved. So I kept it all to myself… which isn’t the easiest thing to do, I might add. 

PAUSE: Okay, so those of you who are thinking right now, “how hard can dancing be?” let me tell ya… haha. Ballet is definitely difficult, especially with no dance classes. I was learning ballet all on my own without knowing what I was doing wrong or right. Frustrating!! But little by little, I did it. I dedicated myself, going to the gym every day and working my butt off until I got my turns and jumps down. Dancing was constantly on mind. Probably not too healthy, but I couldn’t help it.

The most amazing thing about all of this is that I found God. I was in a christian sorority but I didn’t know God. I didn’t know how to rely on him for everything. How to be best friends with him. How he cares wholeheartedly about me. I stumbled upon verses that told me to ask God with faith and it will be given to you! Woah! So much truth in this. God got me through all my training. There’s so much more to how God turned my life around and that might be a different post. This whole journey has just be amazing.

Let’s skip to the pom audition part. Day of, I’m feeling confident and ready to conquer what the world throws at me. By the end of practice, I am just…. discouraged. The girls there were SO much better than me. I was horrible. I was embarrassed. I wanted to cry. What really irked me was that there were people who just came and tried out on a whim. Here I was killing myself to make this team and there were people there who just decided to come. What?? Maybe I’m just bitter, I don’t know. I just had so many emotions going through my head. Once I left, I went straight to the gym to practice. I practiced, but I just couldn’t do it. I sat down on the floor. And I cried. And cried. And cried. My body ached. I had bruises and my muscles were sore. I was physically and mentally exhausted. I couldn’t do it, and that moment was completely devastating to me. 

Now I’m a sophomore. I thank God that I didn’t make the team. I wasn’t ready by any means and it just wasn’t my time. God showed me that he will give me what I ask for, but on HIS timing. His timing is always right, and mine is always wrong. I have to trust Him. And I do. This is why I will be making the 2013 pom squad. 

You just wait and see.

 

je t’aime, 

hayley.

The purpose of this blog….

is for inspiration and encouragement–not just for readers, but for me! Basically, I am chasing the dream to be a dancer, with my end goal right now being to make the pom squad at my university. I am a sophomore and have NO background in dance(other than being a cheerleader), which I’m finding out is honestly nothing like dance. Especially ballet… talk about difficult. Anyway! I will be explaining my story more in depth in the next post, and I will be tracking my progress and thoughts daily. With God on my side, I believe anything is possible!