“As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.”

Proverbs 23:7. 

I’ve been having a big wakeup call with a lot of things! First, my confidence. Confidence in Jesus that he has my best interest no matter what happens with the pom squad, and also that I trust that he has a plan for my life. I’m learning to trying to believe in my heart that if I make the squad, it will not break me. Interesting thought: what would it be like if I couldn’t dance? I would still have God. He is constant and no matter what he is the one that’s going to be there for me no matter what. Through it all. 

Also confidence in myself. As the verse says, if I say something that I am, then that’s what I am. If I say I’m not going to make it, I’m not. Who’s going to believe it if I don’t? I’m going through today focusing on God and focusing on better and more positive thoughts. God got me this far with my dancing and I can’t continue it without him or it’s just going to fail miserably. 

I have two privates today then ballet tomorrow. I’m just going to let go, stop worrying, and have fun! Dancing is fun to me so I need to stop feeling like whether I make it or not is the deciding factor of if I’m good or not. If I failed or not. Because it’s not. I love dancing and I’ve came a long way, so I’m going to turn to God in that fact and know that he gave me this passion to spread glory to his name and share what he has done for me through dance and that’s what I’m going to focus on!!

one day when the light is glowing, I’ll be in my castle golden…

.. but until the gates are open, 

I JUST WANNA FEEL THIS MOMENT! 

 

Seriously feeling this moment right now! If you would have asked me two days ago how dance was going, I would have said that’s it’s going alright. I’ve been praying with faith that I can get these tricks and turns for dance down, and I’ve been trying to believe that God has everything under control (hard to do), but I came to a conclusion today that He really does! It’s hard to have faith sometimes when you don’t see improvement on something you’ve been working on. I had a private today with one of the girls on the pom squad and God definitely spoke through her to give me tips. I feel so much better…. like I can accomplish anything. I still have a long way to go, but with God by my side I CAN ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING!

Going back to slow improvement: It’s really a hard concept to grasp. For me, anyway. I have the mindset where I want to work on something for a week and see results right away. I’m way to hard on myself though. Sometimes I think, “why bother? I’m not getting any better”. but really, I am. Any amount of time spent practicing your goal is not wasted time! You might improve slowly to where you don’t notice but YOU ARE IMPROVING! DONT GIVE UP! 

There’s a saying that I really really like. It goes, “Work as if it depends on you. Pray as if it depends on God.” Ultimately, I’ve realized that I can practice and practice all I want but I’m not going to improve unless I turn to God. This has always been super hard for me to do because I want to do things to where I depend on myself. You’re better off with God running the show, though!!

This week, I want to encourage everyone to pray faithfully to God about something you’re working on and see how much you improve with God by your side!!!! And share them with me, I love hearing encouraging stories about how God is helping everyone!

 

As for me, I will be missing my ballet class tomorrow because of an injured groin. ): Then I won’t be working on dance on Saturday. Hopefully this (unwilling) break will help in the long run. 

Have a wonderful friday!
love, hayley.