Do we really live for God?

Do we? 

So many times I tell myself I do. When situations get tough, I go to God. I go to God for joy because I know he put that joy in my life. The only thing, is that when something happens that I’m not happy with, I tend to lose sight of God and the life he wants me to live. To go out and share his love. I read an article about the Chuck E Cheese guy getting fired and he said the most inspirational thing and I’m going to share it on here because I think it’s a great wakeup call. It really questioned how much of my life I was living for God and how much of his love I show to people. Despite wanting to live a life where I’m CRAZY on fire for God….. I don’t think I do. I need to make more of an effort to be like this guy:

 

If being the voice of Chuck E. Cheese for any length of time has meant anything to me, it was never about a paycheck because God will always provide for His children in one way or another. No. What it was about, what my sincere hope is that you — you Fans, you parents, and all you kids who have loved Chuck E. Cheese over the years — have seen, heard, or experienced Jesus Christ in and through my life in some way.

—Duncan Brannan.

 

I just thought I’d share this because it was a great wakeup call for me and it also showed me that if I set my mind on God then I can become on fire for him like this guy is!!

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the double standard.

What first comes to your mind when you hear the words “double standard”? For me I think of a girl saying it about a guy. Because us girls are always saying something about it 😉 Luckily I’m not about to go into that. I’ve been learning this really important lesson lately, and I’m not even sure you would call it a double standard. All I know is that we are probably all guilty of doing this and the sad thing is that we don’t even realize it. Or maybe everyone has realized it but me and I’m just plain crazy, but I’m going to share anyway.

Ever been in a bad situation or a bad fight? Find the first situation your mind goes to and think about it for a minute. Think about everything that went wrong. Who was to blame? What was that one thing they said or did that you can’t help but bring up every time you think about the situation. Think about it.

I was in the middle of venting to someone close to me, asking why he/she never makes an effort to spend time with me… and it hit me! What effort did I make? I complain and am constantly ate up inside about this depleting relationship but I didn’t do anything about it. I act like it’s the other persons job to seek me out and my reasoning is because in our relationship it makes more sense that the other person should be making more of an effort towards me. But there I was, standing in front of the person and my heart pounded with guilt as my mind became frantic. They shouldn’t be in charge of coming to me. What are they going through? How is their job? How are the issues they tell no one about effecting their lives? And now I’m standing here telling them they have another selfish burden to worry about. One that was completely accurate…. on my terms. I should be ashamed of myself! Isn’t it my job as a christian and as a person to seek people out if I’m not happy about our relationship? Another example is how I get hurt by someone and I become distant but I don’t tell the person how I’m feeling or why I’m hurt. I’m just distant. And that’s not fair to the other person who may genuinely think they aren’t doing anything wrong. I think we sometimes tell ourselves that because I know something, so should they. Because I feel this way, they should know what I’m feeling and feel that way too. But we don’t all think the same! All of these situation make me realize: it’s not one-sided; it’s two.

It could be reversed too. Maybe your holding onto something that you did wrong and you just can’t get over. Well, let me tell ya…. get over it. You may think you were the only one to blame, but that also may not be the case. I’m not saying shoot the blame on someone else for what you did wrong, but don’t continually beat yourself up for it. Admit your wrongdoing and move on in hope to not make the same mistake again. Let go. Because holding onto it isn’t going to make anything better. Every day is a new day and it’s not your job to please the people who are still holding a grudge against you. We all make mistakes. Some mistakes may be bigger than others, but honestly I believe no matter how the big the mistake, if you ask for forgiveness, forgive yourself, and move on then you will be blessed. I believe EVERY mistake, EVERY sin can be forgiven. Every day you are given a new start and God intended for us to start each day new and focus on Him and on being a better person. Don’t hold on to grudges, self-pity, mistakes. LET IT GO.

There you have it. If this has never crossed your mind before then I encourage you to take a few minutes to think about it. Think about your situation before you approach or judge the problem. Remember, it’s easy to blame the other person. And frankly, they may be very much to blame. But take a step back from the situation and see what your doing. What you could be doing. How that person was raised. What the advantages are that you have but they don’t. Now what are you going to do about it?

CHALLENGE: Try going a day with a good attitude. In a bad situation, think of how it can be considered a blessing. What can you gain from it? (confidence, patience, etc..) Think of what you can be thankful for in a bad situation. See how a positive attitude in every situation can make your day better. It’s easy to be grumpy and rude, and honestly sometimes we just flat out want to be like that because it’s easy. But we know it’s not right. Let go of a grudge your holding against someone because no matter how screwed up it seems on their part, maybe they aren’t the only one to blame.

god is teaching me….

… to stop comparing myself to yesterday, the day before, the day before that. when i look back at where i was this time last year… WOW! tremendous difference and i’m so grateful. often i forgot how truly blessed i am in that sense. that god is helping me with me dance. seriously! who can say they learned all these tricks by themselves in two years? if you can then props to you. but i know i couldn’t do it without god! but i’m realizing by how far i’ve come that this is my god-given talent. i love audition day and the nerves i get before i go on. their so worth it when i get in front of those judges and nail what i did. i need to go out and give it all i’ve got. which is what god is showing me (and i literally JUST realized this) (like 5 minutes ago).

sidenote: tricks for pom are kinda sketchy. one day i can do a perfect turn and the next day i can only do a few then i start falling. and i worry how my turns will be at tryouts. 

god is showing me that i need to go out on that dance floor and do my best FOR THAT PARTICULAR DAY. that’s kind of odd, i know. usually people are told, “you’ve done every trick perfectly in your life, so do what you’ve been doing” blah blah something along those lines. and thats great advice. but for me particularly, it’s not. since dance tricks aren’t something im consistent at, i might not go out there and nail the tricks that i know i’ve done perfectly before. and i also know that that is going to eat me up inside for years to come if it goes down that way. but i can’t let it. I need to go out there and do the best I can do that day. If I screw up every trick, that needs to be okay in my heart. as long as i know i’m trying hard that day, i have all the reason to be proud of myself. I need to get it in my head now that I might not nail every trick and that’s okay, as long as i don’t let it eat me up inside. but at the same time i need to go into the audition believing in my heart that i can nail the tricks. i just need to be right with myself and with god if i don’t do as well as i hope. im just praying that god will take over my tricks and help me do them perfectly.

god is wonderful and never leaves or forsakes you!!!
hayley. ❤

success and failure

I’ve been learning a lot about success and failure lately. After a great eye opening day with girls that God put in my life to give me a wakeup call, I have been feeling much better. I now am not anxious about the pom squad (maybe a little) but I can cope with it and I know that it’s not the end of the world if I don’t make it. God still loves me and He wanted me take this leap of faith and I did, so I am proud of myself!

I’ve come so far from this time last year and it’s all because of Him. He’s teaching me to just trust in Him and everything will work out. Lately I’ve been going to the studio and doing something great that I haven’t been able to do and I know it’s because I’m not worrying and putting myself down anymore. I used to get so upset that I didn’t have a trick down, but now I realize that even a practice that is full of unperfect turns is still perfect! Getting out there is hard, but staying out there is harder! Sometimes in practice I get frustrated and want to walk away. I get better mentally and physically, though, when I stay and keep going. A bad practice is better than no practice at all. 

ps. tryouts are next saturday, in case anyone was wondering 😉 

“As a man thinks in his heart, so is he.”

Proverbs 23:7. 

I’ve been having a big wakeup call with a lot of things! First, my confidence. Confidence in Jesus that he has my best interest no matter what happens with the pom squad, and also that I trust that he has a plan for my life. I’m learning to trying to believe in my heart that if I make the squad, it will not break me. Interesting thought: what would it be like if I couldn’t dance? I would still have God. He is constant and no matter what he is the one that’s going to be there for me no matter what. Through it all. 

Also confidence in myself. As the verse says, if I say something that I am, then that’s what I am. If I say I’m not going to make it, I’m not. Who’s going to believe it if I don’t? I’m going through today focusing on God and focusing on better and more positive thoughts. God got me this far with my dancing and I can’t continue it without him or it’s just going to fail miserably. 

I have two privates today then ballet tomorrow. I’m just going to let go, stop worrying, and have fun! Dancing is fun to me so I need to stop feeling like whether I make it or not is the deciding factor of if I’m good or not. If I failed or not. Because it’s not. I love dancing and I’ve came a long way, so I’m going to turn to God in that fact and know that he gave me this passion to spread glory to his name and share what he has done for me through dance and that’s what I’m going to focus on!!

one day when the light is glowing, I’ll be in my castle golden…

.. but until the gates are open, 

I JUST WANNA FEEL THIS MOMENT! 

 

Seriously feeling this moment right now! If you would have asked me two days ago how dance was going, I would have said that’s it’s going alright. I’ve been praying with faith that I can get these tricks and turns for dance down, and I’ve been trying to believe that God has everything under control (hard to do), but I came to a conclusion today that He really does! It’s hard to have faith sometimes when you don’t see improvement on something you’ve been working on. I had a private today with one of the girls on the pom squad and God definitely spoke through her to give me tips. I feel so much better…. like I can accomplish anything. I still have a long way to go, but with God by my side I CAN ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING!

Going back to slow improvement: It’s really a hard concept to grasp. For me, anyway. I have the mindset where I want to work on something for a week and see results right away. I’m way to hard on myself though. Sometimes I think, “why bother? I’m not getting any better”. but really, I am. Any amount of time spent practicing your goal is not wasted time! You might improve slowly to where you don’t notice but YOU ARE IMPROVING! DONT GIVE UP! 

There’s a saying that I really really like. It goes, “Work as if it depends on you. Pray as if it depends on God.” Ultimately, I’ve realized that I can practice and practice all I want but I’m not going to improve unless I turn to God. This has always been super hard for me to do because I want to do things to where I depend on myself. You’re better off with God running the show, though!!

This week, I want to encourage everyone to pray faithfully to God about something you’re working on and see how much you improve with God by your side!!!! And share them with me, I love hearing encouraging stories about how God is helping everyone!

 

As for me, I will be missing my ballet class tomorrow because of an injured groin. ): Then I won’t be working on dance on Saturday. Hopefully this (unwilling) break will help in the long run. 

Have a wonderful friday!
love, hayley.